Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Story of my life

If any of you don't know yet... I quit smoking.

It's been almost a month now.. and not one slip up. I admit, I miss it. I've come to find out that it wasn't really the nicotine, or the habit of smoking them, it was the enjoyment that has made me think of them.

Yes, the nicotine like they say is the hardest for the first 3 days... then it's out of your body... THEN I had to deal with the habit.

Mostly everyday I had a cigarette at the same time... the exact same time. Ugh... it was painful.

Eventually, I just forgot about it. But, the enjoyment.. I still have not forgotten. I know it was bad for me, yada yada yada... but that doesn't mean I didn't like it. Oh, the enjoyment. That is what I'm dealing with now after almost a month. It's those times where I'm like... "damn, it would be really nice to have a cigarette right now." NOT because I need one, because I want one. Big difference.

Either way... it sucks. I've quit.. I wont pick it back up, it's not worth it obviously to my body, or my wallet.

But, there were people who didn't think I could do it (cough cough, my husband) and I think I've done a pretty damn good job of quitting thus far.

So there.

In the meantime.. I've picked up some more habits... to fill the space of THAT habit. They include... chewing my fingers, biting my lips, and eating. Oh yes, eating. This.. I have just noticed.. primarily on the scale, so back to the diet it is. I've got to kick THAT nasty habit right away.

Oh the joys... you do one thing to become healthy, and end up doing more un-healthy things.