Weekend Review: Craziness

My weekend was crazy to say the least.

It really deserves it's own post.. but I have too much to talk about today to do that.

I'll give you an overview. Put a bunch of redneck drunks together...(alot of rednecks) it's bound to get interesting and rowdy. Remember, I was going to that concert down in New Jersey this weekend? Don't get me wrong, we had a great time, and I loved seeing Chris Young, he was fabulous, but 6 hours of tailgating really wears you out! I'll go more into it tomorrow.

That was pretty much my weekend.. got home early Sunday morning, did a few things outside, ordered pizza with my mom, and watched the thunderstorms roll in. Now, it's back to the grime of Monday. (sigh)

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I found out yesterday that my grandfathers lymphoma first cancer treatment didn't work. How do you react to that? After months of hoping, and wishing he would get better... he's not. Instead, he faces a serious choice of what to do next. How do you react?

I just sat there.

Until about 12:30 last night... when I finally broke into tears. Luckily, my amazing husband was right there to hold me.. it helped, for the moment.

Sometimes I wonder why the world is so cruel, why someone so great, so loving, and so much fun, should have to go through something like this. It's not fair. Life's not fair.

I hope he picks what is right for him, what will make him content, what will be the best. I pray that we find a way to get around this, for him to just get better. I pray.

So much going on right now, sometimes it's hard to just hold it all in. It builds, and builds. I can only take so much before I just burst... I think last night was my first burst of many to come.

Sometimes, I wish I could just run away to a deserted island... or mountain top. Live off the land with Ryan, have life be so simple... just us, without a care in the world. Just seems it be so much easier.