A broken heart

You know what sucks?

When you have to give back something you love...

When you have literally nothing left to give... and don't know what to do, and you have to give back something you love... a lot.

This is what my family and I had to do Friday night...

We had to give back the precious, cute puppy we had come to know and love in just a short week.

Not because we wanted to.... not at all.


To make a long, devastating story short, the puppy got sick. Really sick.


After 3 vet trips and a very late night emergency trip.. we had done all we could, and gave all we could emotionally and financially. There was not much else we could do for this poor little thing.

It's hard to decide if you did the right thing... was thing wrong to do?

All my mom wanted was her own puppy, her own companion.

We of course had no idea that this adorable, friendly, outgoing, playful puppy would soon fall sick, helpless, a change from the puppy that we knew.

She more then likely had serious neurological issues. This is what we were told after multiple visits, after multiple mis-diagnosis'.... we could run tests to find out for sure... but that would cost a lot of money. The kind of money we just don't have right now... unfortunately.

This was the moment I wished I was blessed with winning the lottery... just so I could help my mom, help really find out what was wrong with this poor innocent puppy. Even if we couldn't have saved her, even if she would never be right again, at least we would know.

It was so hard... you come to love something so quick, and in a blink of an eye it is gone. I just couldn't watch the poor thing anymore.

So, Friday night we brought her back to the breeder.. where according to law you can "return" a puppy within 10 days if it has a serious/deathly illness. It's sad, but it's life. Handing her over was hard... we cried... and I still miss that little cutie now.

Will my mom ever get another dog? I think so.. but not now.

Not until her broken heart heals...

If only there was more we could do. These things happen, and no matter how much you blame yourself, we could have never seen this coming, or never prepared ourselves for the pain we had to go through.

Life hands you many obstacles.. some of which we don't want, but we all have to learn from these experiences and grow with them.

A broken heart will heal.

Amberlee