It gets a little personal...

Yesterday I shared that I was trying to lose weight... and I said I would talk about that a little more later..

Well, I decided to share that today.

I wasn't planning on writing about it quite yet, but as I sat here and tried to down my water to reach my daily water intake goal, I just needed to talk about it.

Here's my history...

Three years ago I began to gain weight... and fast.

Not the most pleasant feeling when you get on the scale and you have gained 5 pounds over night... yeah.. it happens.

To make a long story short.. without too many details, I gained 100 pounds in just over a year. Yes, 100 pounds!!!!

It was depressing. (still is!)

I couldn't figure out why this was happening (I really wasn't eating like there was no tomorrow, honest)

Well, at this time I was facing some, well lets just say... female problems. There wasn't much going on that year. 

I started to put the two together... and after many doctor appointments.. and a few "I don't know what I can do, I'm sorry" and even a "You'll never have kids." (Which that line sent me into a crying fit) I was sent to a specialist. He got to the bottom of it, and I was diagnosed with PCOS. (click to learn more) It's a female hormonal problem... and it pretty much means when the time comes and we are ready to start a family... it will be a littler harder then most. 

The Doctor also told me at our first appointment, "This is why you have gained weight, and it will be 3 times harder to take it off"

In the beginning I was heartbroken, but many women have this... it's not curable, it's manageable, and I am managing just fine now. After a few months of testing meds... I am no longer on any, because they just didn't work. So my options? Ride it out... lose weight... and there is fertility options in my future. I can deal with that.

Needless to say... it has been over a year and things are looking up. I finally got into the kick of losing weight.. I really started trying the end of February (when I got engaged), and I have lost 30 pounds since the start (around November of last year). It has also helped my "condition" and things have been good with that as well. I still have alot more weight to lose.. but my goal is 8-10 pounds per month. That is a healthy loss, and once it is off.. it is NEVER coming back. 

I hope to lose another 10-15 pounds before my wedding... so I have 2 months to do it.. With hurting my foot.. it has been a struggle to work out.. but I am going to start swimming, because I can do that. Hopefully that helps keep me going.

When it is all said and done... I will put up the before and after pics... those will be a soar sight. I am just ready to get back to my normal weight.. and well... be happy with myself again. Luckily, I have a fiance that loves me not matter what, and has been helping me every step of the way. 

Some people are quick to judge, but in all honesty, I didn't pick this for myself. But, I am working to make myself healthier, more active, and smash this condition to the ground as much as I can. There will be a time (soon I hope) that my soon to be husband and I will be ready to start our own family, and by then I want to be back to a healthy size.. a healthy attitude, and hopefully that will make my chances greater and easier to one day become a mom =) 

Until then...

I have faith that it will all work out.. and all come off.

amberlee